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Tuesday, November 25, 2008

SoGnAtoRe<3.

Dreamer<3.
She reaches for the stars. She believes that anything is possible for herself.
She wants to travel the world and meet varieties of wonderful and interesting people!
She desires so deeply to learn many langauges and do what she loves.
She gets a C in a class and her mom may not be happy but she is.
Her dream is to simply be happy with herself. She listens to the song of her heart.
She may have lost her virginity at such a young age, but she doesn't beat herself up.
She loves who she is and she wants to become a better person. She believes there is room for improvement.
She wears her jeans and button up flannel shirt and takes a shot, while saying a prayer for the desperate heart tonight.
You have to learn to walk before you learn to run.
She dreams of the world. Her dreams spread over vast nations.
She is told that she can be this that and the other, yet all she wants to be is dirt poor and happy.
She wants to live on the edge and never doubt her instinct.
Taking the hardest classes possible...not only to get the hell out of here, but to keep her distracted and entertained.
If she were not to challenge herself, she realizes that she would have been gone a LONG time ago.
She is not the killing kind, but she will rage just like a river and then beg him to forgive her.
Misery is not something she believes in. She does not die to anyone and she does not have a hard time letting go.
She is determined and she is rolling on...keeping the mind set that everything will become breath-taking eventually.
 


windows [on a] train.

Windows on a train.

Did you watch me, God, when I lashed out in anger? Did you watch me, God, when I denyed you? Did you become furious with your daughter? How did you feel when I lied to my mother? Did it break you heart when I was slowly breaking my own? Did you watch me, God, when I became furious with my father for being an asshole? Did you hurt when I yelled at my sister and raged at her for nothing? Did you consider denying me forgiveness when it was LEAST deserved? Did you watch, God, as I created the past I now have? Were you the windows on a train...like a love stuck in time?


Saturday, November 08, 2008

Sitting Tight

 
You sent me to a place I had never been-ANGEL-AFLYING
a place I never dreamed of. It was a place
of sorrow and pain; a place where I learned
a lot about mySELF. You told me that I had potential.
You told me I could do all things if I would just be
myself. What did that get me? A few flings...a
journey of discovery? Where would I be if I had
not looked at you and told myself I'd wanted
that? I watch the children laugh and the flowers grow.
I admire the white snow falling from the bluest sky
I have ever seen, and I think about you. These
winter days bring about the loneliest thoughts.
Beautiful moments come and go and I smile and
laugh; enjoying the best life I have possibly lived.
Because of you, I have grown up. You allowed me
to become the person I am. I don't listen to the world,
I know my way, and I dream of something BIGGER.
I believe in myself and I love who I have become.
 Now that you're gone, I wonder if I still cross your
mind. I wonder if you know how much of an impact
you had on my life. They ask me to learn, but I want
to be taught by the best of the scholars. I want
to learn how to be humble and wise. I want to learn
many languages and experience the people of this
world. I do not want to leave a stone unturned. I
believe as each day passes that I am one day older
and one step closer. This time we are on is borrowed.
Eventually, it runs out...when my time comes, know I
am still smiling. As you lay me down in the tomb, I will
smile at the glorious experiences and the vivid
memories of my life well lived.
CIAO!
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